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i like sunsets.

6 weeks of shaking

i'm not lost. i'm not confused. i'm not desperate for answers.

seriously life is great.
i'm just waiting. i'm progressing day by day, crossing duties of my list, learning, living in excitement, living easily, looking forward to family time and road trips.
if you asked me a month or two ago, i would have said...

"holding on to patience wearing thin"
yes, this has to be what i've been waiting for.
yes, i have to pursue this happiness i feel.
but wait, oh great.
no, i really don't know what to do, what i want.
no, this can't be happening to me.

i think all my emotions were getting shook like a snow globe
then i watched them fall as i stood still.

then i realized it's ok to feel sad and intent. but only for 60 seconds.
then i realized everything i was missing in those 60 seconds:
laughter, hope, family, talent, friends, ocean breeze, sleep.

so i got back up and filled my heart with hope and love. i smiled. and counted every blessing. i only got so far before i broke down in tears for being so selfish, failing to acknowledge these miracles before.

so on to better things!

my dancing episodes!

I'm starting a YouTube page with my crazy free-dancing! haha! Go to YouTube, subscribe and enjoy the spontaneous fun...here's episode #1!! :) hahahah

23

Got up at 6:30am and went to Waimea Bay to relax (yes, before the sun came out). Hana and Nehoa came with me :) So it was cloudy and cold but it honestly is nice just being there alone, enjoying the silence and scenery. So we laid down on the towel cuddled together with the umbrella over our heads.

Once it cleared up a little, we decided to take a walk. By the time we got to the other side of the beach, it started POURING. ahhhh great! You know what's funny, though. When it's raining, the beach becomes really calm and crystal clear. The drops falling on the top just seem to turn it into ice or something. It's really pretty.

Well, the sun finally came out and I went swimmmmin! I was the only one in the water! Well...there was a turtle. And an old man doing laps. And I'm sure many fishes and nasty creatures under my feet. But I love them all.

Pretty rainbow. Gonna be a great day! It already is!

Skipping the daytime...going straight to dinner. Everyone was waiting for me at home. The girls decided it was a princess party and didn't tell me! They're so adorable I want one of them.
We danced to Jonas Brothers, Miley Cyrus and other radio Disney characters. We danced til they dropped.

My favorite (and only) present. Kihei made me a CD of his cool songs and picked me flowers. He loves me. :)
That was my fun-family-filled birthday! Happy 23!

my theme song

This is what I think of myself.

Dance. Dance. Dance.
by Lykke Li

Having troubles telling how I feel
But I can dance, dance and dance
Couldn't possibly tell you how I mean
But I can dance, dance, dance So when I trip on my feet
Look at the beat
The words are, written in the sand
When I'm shaking my hips
Look for the swing
The words are, written in the air
Dance
I was a dancer all along
Dance, dance, dance Words can never make up for what you do
Easy conversations, there's no such thing
No I'm shy, shy, shy
My hips they lie 'cause in reality I'm shy, shy, shy
But when I trip on my feet
Look at the ground
The words are, written in the dust
When I'm shaking my hips Look for the swing
The words are written in the air
Dance
I was a dancer all along
Dance, dance, dance
Words can never make up for what you do
Dance, dance, dance

click on the picture to go to her site!!!!!
you can get a free download of a cover she did of "will you still love me tomorrow"!!!!
<3

i just bought new books!

I just pre-ordered some books and got a third one just so i have free shipping.. haha

SO EXCITED FOR MOCKINGJAY!!!! (3rd/final book of the Hunger Games)

Just saw an ad for this book and thought it looked interesting. Actually, they compared it to Royal Tenenbaums, one of my favorite movies. So...I gotta read it!

This is the third book I got so I could get free shipping. Seems inspiring. Should be a good summer read...I'm actually not much of a reader. I like it though and I want to be better.

dance concert!

I just realized I haven't blogged about my dance concert! It's what I worked so hard for...it happened one night...and then it was all over...and i miss it.

I danced in the intro piece, a contemporary/jazz, hip-hop, lyrical, another hip-hop/breakdance (this one I choreographed), hawaiian hula, another hip-hop, a turkish dance, chinese fan dance, bollywood, another contemporary, and the finale. 12 all together. best thing i've ever done.

Yes, there's a lot of pictures.

My lovely teacher, Nina..Mahalo.